so im doing it im taking that next step

so i have asked Courtney out in a manner of speaking and i know where I'm going to take her out to eat i plan to take her to t:::::::::::::e... sorry i cant tell yall on here its a surprise for her at least and dot sense sense i know my sister will tell her, so i cant put anything important on here because she might read it on ...a side note you know i still kind of don't feel ready for this but i guess i don't feel ready for most anything i do so that's nothing new well I'm going to bed night all

these times be a changing

to all my SEEK friends i will miss you so i thought i would say by goodbyes on here and remember you always so if i miss anyone im sorry but i guess only one person reads my blog so it doesn't really matter .... BUT i will do it anyway starting now -Julie-you were a really caring friend-Luke-you are one of the funniest people i know-josh-your so random and at times i think you just a tiny bit rude but i will miss you none the less-Daniel-your a cool man Daniel and im glad i cool know you over this past year-mac-at times you make things awkward but sense i love when its awkward i wouldn't change a thing about you-Elizabeth-i will never forget when we all climbed that mountain and i almost didn't make it at the end and you stayed and help me climb that last part thank you i will miss you loudness-Alex-dude Alex we have alot in common and im glad that i got to meet you your a chill guy and a great friend-Stephanie-well now Stephanie im very glad i met you i clearly remember you getting to seek late and i was having a tough time with life and was outside thinking you you stayed and talked with me through my problems i have never told someone that much about me that i didn't know that well and i just want to say thank you for your friendship and your ear-Whitney- your small and your loud and your a good friend i know we having talked much but i will miss seeing you just as much as the rest of my friends-Carisa-you were a good friend and i enjoyed hanging out with you ------ well as you see i just put the seniors down that i wont see any more and will miss thank you all for the wonderful year you all have helped change my life. sorry 11th - 6th graders if i put everyone i would miss i don't think i would be done with this till i was like 20 or something bye my WEAG family i will miss you all

i hope i can fly

well to being with the back story. i long time ago a year maybe two im not sure. i sent a friend request to this random girl on facebook see once a month i sent out random friend request to people just to make new friends. now back on point her mane was becky and we started talking we had alot in common and after a while traded phone numbers and started texting we would text almost every day all day that lasted a long time. seven months ago she text me asking if i could call her and i did her father had gotten cancer and was going to die well on that day i sent the first thing i could think of to cheer her up a flower pic over the phone and then i did that one flower a day every day (no two flowers the same) i ran out of flowers at 100 days 100 flowers and i never missed a day. well july 23 her father passed away i went straight to her house and held her in my arms as she cried well i had to leave at about midnight so i could sleep before work sadly. the next day she text me the funeral was monday. i went to it and again held heer in my arms during the service while she cried. it broke my heart to see her so hurt with nothing i could do to stop it. (btw side note most any guy hates it when a girl starts to cry and will do most anything to make her stop) so after that it made me start thinking and i started to relise that i love her and yet i dont want to date her there is another girl that i want to date and yet i love this other one. one of my friends called me crazy that what i was doing made no sense and it doesnt. there is no logic behind this choice im jumping off a cliff and hopeing i can fly

plants vs zombies

the game plants vs zombies is so much fun i have wasted hours playing it...is that a good or bad thing hmm i think its bad but who cares im having fun. well i didnt sign up to help vbs this year but im still going up there every night just to hang out and talk to people. last night the question was about the future and it made me think yes i want to be some kind of pastor and for awhile i wanted to be the head pastor but now im leaning more towards being a youth pastor. see i feel if you lead a life thats not fun then what is the point we have a short time here and i think we should enjoy it to best of our power. moving on i have been listening to slow music and i have really been enjoying it so if yall know any good slow bands yet me know

mind wondering

i like thinking about the past i just do and today i was thinking about my old youth pastor that my first church kicked out and how each one of my youth pastors have had flaws and good things about them just like all people but see i notice the misspoken word the slip up i watch people and i read people easliy most of the time and you youth leaders/pastors try to be better than normal you try to be the perfect christian well i feel the PERFECT christian doesnt hide there flaws they show them and are like jesus still loves me even though im a bit crazy and i like to party and have fun

FIRST BEACH DAY!!!!

(this post is all about yesterday) so we got up finished packing the truck and van and then we sat around waiting for Andrew to get back from the doctors so we could leave once he got back we loaded in the van and headed on to the beach when we got to the beach we set our stuff in the room and headed to the beach the waves were so awesome better than Daytona (much better) so when we where done in the water we walked back to the beach house changed clothes and rode on our bikes on the boardwalk for a bit then we came home i little before dinner i tried to get online but no one could remember the password so i spend a good hour trying to hack the password but i couldn't get it because i don't have my program that helps me hack because i haven't been able to find it to download it to this computer but finally i got to work as you see because i remembered the password after facebooking for a bit we ate and left for the boardwalk where we spent the rest of the night

todays story

well i am back from choir tour and it has been a good few day slept most of them so i dont really have anything to post umm i am leaving for the beach in two day with the guys it is going to be so awesome besides that i really have nothing lol o well till next time peace out yall

choir tour preview

hey im back from my last trip with the seek youth group it was fun. i dont feel like typing out what i did on the trip tonight maybe later, but everything i said came true but the lisence and me having a girlfriend but i can't say i didn't try

bye of now i will be back as soon as i can

so i am not going to be able to post for a while next time i post there will be some things different like i will be 18 i will have, i will have been to the state of Floirda, and will have been on my last mission trip with SEEK youth group as a student. those are the for sures the hopefullys are i will hopefully be able to drive and i will hopefully have a girlfriend but see yall later and i will have a story to tell you next time

looking for you

i don't know where you are or who you are i thought i had found you but the girl wasn't you.that girl broke my heart and we never even went on a date. but now I'm over it and I'm ready to start looking again i need you, i miss you my heart aches of you and yet i don't think i have ever met you. i just want someone to hold in my arms. i want someone to want to spend time with me. i want someone to miss me when I'm gone. i want someone to sing silly songs with and laugh, but i don't think i have found that yet. yes there is a girl but i don't know how this will go because i know I'm going to ask her out, i pray she says yes. yet this Thursday i will be 18 and i have never held a girls hand romantically, i have never had a first kiss, and have never been on a date. what kind of girl will want someone like that? I'm not the buff strong guy. I'm not the smart brain guy. I'm not the quick witted smooth talker. I'm Eddie what do i do best i don't know? i guess speak to large groups of people but how will that make someone want me. i mean i can't write you a song, i can't draw you a picture, i can't do anything that makes love stronger. I'm Eddie all i can do is be there that's what I'm good at being there i have been there for so many people that it doesn't feel like that will matter but at the same time i feel like that is something worth while when I'm there for someone. does this post even make sense to anyone but me i don't know? but i know people will understand this. I'm looking for someone to love and i have someone in mind but if this fails i will be glad for someone to step up and say something to me. but who would no one would because I'm Eddie. I'm Eddie and going to be a pastor. I'm Eddie and i can't show flaws. I'm Eddie and i can't let stuff bring me down. I'm Eddie and i can't sit and cry in my room because i feel lonely and want what my friends have or have had. I'm Eddie and i think that i will never find her.

fathers day is just a normal day

well as you know today was fathers day well in my house that doesn't mean much i got my dad some shirt off of a rack in Wal-Mart it says #1 dad or something like that. ha #1 dad i don't know he tries his best i guess and i think he means well but everything he does makes me madder and madder. its not that he does anything be mean or cruel either it just is tiny stuff but its the same with both my parents if i can not be around them I'm not. I don't know if the reason behind this is maybe teenage craziness running wild in my mind at times or maybe the fact that deep down inside i just feel anger at them for being stupid and having me. i doubt that if my mom hadn't got pregnant with me that they would have married. they are both so different and that strains a marriage when both party's like to do other stuff but i don't know if it will work out or not (my moneys on not) but whatever happens, i have God so happy fathers day to the one who loves me forever (this post is not to bag on my father i love him and respect him always)

flowers and the homeless

so i got up today and went to work. we dropped off at four places today at UofR in the Greek theater,at some hotel,at a small church in Richmond, and at a house out in the middle of nowhere. umm after work i came home looked on here then i looked on facebook there was nothing going on so i got bored and took a nap and i slept till about 7 then i got up and got back online well i looked around facebook some more (gosh I'm such a facebook stalker) and then came on here (guess I'm a blog stalker now as well) i read some very neat post from some of my friends. i didn't know so much about them and i love to learn its fun to do so, well i came across a post on one of the blogs that i was looking at talking about homeless people and how we should help so i invited them to go to Monroe park one Sunday with me to feed the homeless. hmm it has been such a long time sense i have last been to the park i really want to go soon but all of my Sundays are booked till sometime next month so i guess i will go then. but as for this i realised two things about this blog my life is not that exciting at times and my post will be boring and i just like doing this so much i guess its because i like to tell people about my day and here i can do so and know that someone maybe listening well umm i mean reading about me and it just makes me happy

the west end evening

Ok so i spend my entire afternoon over on the west end today. First i went to weag where we had some stuff for youth choir going on (like dinner and a slip and slide) and trust me the slip and slide was fun every time i went on it but once and the only reason it wasn't fun is because i almost ran over my good friend Stephanie. This guy named Tyler wanted to do a train down the slip and slide well a bunch of us did it and it went i think like this 1 Tyler 2 Devon 3 Stephine 4 Eddie (me) 5 Zach 6 i don't know the kids name but whatever. Well Stephanie being smaller than me slowed down sooner than i did so i had to try to not run over her it. I succeed and didn't hit her but i hurt my wrist a bit in doing so (i will be fine tomorrow i think its just bruised) then after the slip and slide the youth went up stairs and sang for a bit we sounded ok but Timmy who is one of the kids there kept messing us up and just acting wild (but Timmy is still a cool guy) after we where done singing me Zach and josh rode with Elizabeth to Wal-Mart. We were at Wal-Mart and met this older woman who bought Zach sunscreen(there is a whole story behind it but i don't feel like typing it out) it just blew my mind that someone was that friendly. So now done with Wal-Mart we headed to a place called Sweet Frog well when we got there we found out the people we where meeting there had walked to Dicks sporting goods so we walked over there it was a bit of a walk but it was still fun i guess so we get to Dicks and find our friends well everyone kind of wondered off on there own or in small groups soooooo i figured i would do the same so i headed to my fave place in a store like that. The archery part they had such a nice bow there today it had a targeting sight, a cleaning launch plate, very good grip on it, and it was light weight. It was so nice it had a min pound draw of 45 but thats ok because my draws like 50 something almost 60 so it was all good but the price tag $499.00 ON SALE gosh why do bows cost so much, but moving on the group left there and walked back. I walked beside Stephanie and learned something cool she plays the sholts game (if you don't know what it is your kind of lame sorry but its just a fact) just like me and my friends do but when we got back to Sweet Frog everyone had to part ways so we left and while on the way home we got a phone call from Caleb asking if we were going hanging out of course we were so the group got together and hung out till almost midnight so all in all i had a very good evening

The failed trip to BWs

OK so Caleb picked me up today and we went over to Andrew's and got him, after we got him we drove all over the place getting Skinner and Zach once the group was all together we went to the sandston shake shop where we hung out till umm i don't know 8ish. Then we left for Buffalo wild wings to karaoke the night away but that didn't happen instead we sat outside all night talking to people from Caleb's work becasue of a mix up with the tables so after stand around for over an hour we went to Wal-Mart where we still did nothing and then Caleb brought me home. It was ok but no where near the fun i thought we where going to have so it was a failed trip from my point of view

ok the first real post of many

I has been a good day so far, i woke up and got right onto my new laptop and then on to facebook where i stalked the normal 8 people i do. Then i sent out my random friend request for the month i hope i get someone this time the last two months have been failures, and then after all that and breakfast i started working on making this blog and as you can tell i finally got it working. O and i finally got to watch some music videos i have been wanting to see.

its a start

OK well this is my first post now i have always wanted a blog but have never gotten one because i have never have my own computer but guess what i have one now so I'm starting a blog